.i should've known better.

.remember my older post about being in the circle and being proud that i get over things quickly that i used to have such trouble with?

.well i feel the anticipation of something that i have to get over again and this part is always hard because deep down i hope that it won't turn out the same. deep down i know that it's going to be what i deserve, it's going to be what i imagine, it's gonna be like that book i read since i seem to realize that i live my life out of a fiction romance smh.

.and then i'm over that part on my circle of life. and i've let myself down again. just as you disappoint me, i disappoint myself ten times more.