the healing is unfamiliar so sometimes i don't know how to process what's happening so i react or cry or sleep or over eat or keep to myself
detachment is unfamiliar
feels like i'm walking a tight rope but i finally feel the step
i know what i want because i have to pull myself out
not complaining has really put things into perspective for me. i feel more matured.
i feel like an adult
i just hope that i'm doing it right this time.
trying everything in a different outside my norm because my norm wasn't working
i'm too hard on myself
this has been a process
oo, i feel detached
it's so far in the distant, that it's blurry.
but things can only go up from here
but sometimes, i feel just a little brush of the joy & cry for them.
"what happened, had to happen."
apparently but oof sometimes i cry.
another lesson learned.