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Saturday, December 3, 2016

Golden

I turned 27!!!

It was my golden birthday on November 27th. I've always wanted to have a big 27th birthday party but was unable to pull it together in the way that I truly wanted so I opted to a vacation instead. I went to Playa Del Carmen, Mexico by myself on my first solo trip. I've traveled to France by myself 5 years ago, but I met up with people once I got there and I've been to 11 different states this year, so I've gotten used to traveling on long flights and I've also gotten used to being in my own company.

I have to admit, I never, ever thought I would have been bringing in my birthday the way that I did. Not only was I not having the big party that I wanted, I was also going to be spending my most special birthday alone. I really love celebrating the birthday's of those close to me. It's your special day. It just makes me feel so good! I don't know, I like to celebrate people so I wanted to make sure I would get that on my day. I asked my sisters and friends and no one was able to come. I just couldn't have spent my big birthday in gloomy, NJ especially if I couldn't have had celebrated in the way I wanted. So, I booked my trip and was on my way.

I stayed at the Princess Yucatan all-inclusive resort. It was beautiful! I was the only black person there. That was interesting lol. Mexico was a great experience. A lot of people expressed being nervous about the country, but I enjoyed myself there. I went on a tour of the Mayan Ruins in Tulum. I even snorkeled in a cenote (underwater cave) and lagoon that lead out into the sea. I saw Rainbow Parrot fish, monkey's, deer, snake trails, crocodiles and lemurs. The resort was filled with couples so not only did I feel safe but I didn't have to worry about anyone trying to hook up with me.

I did have my lonely moments though. I had a moment of holding onto the past right before I left but I just had to look past it. It would have been amazing to have someone there but I'm glad that I've reached a point where I don't allow it make me sad anymore. I used to be so sad about being alone but now I'm starting to change my views and through that, my feelings about it are changing, too. I'm thankful that I'm able to see that because when all of this was happening and I ended up booking this trip alone, I was so annoyed that I had to experience this. I was nervous about facing it. I just didn't want to spend my entire birthday trip crying all alone. But I went and didn't even drop a tear. I did think about it but I didn't cry and I didn't think about it for that long. #progress

It was great to spend time with myself. Through this, I am learning what I like and don't like, need and don't need. This trip gave me the exact insight that I needed in this new chapter. Chapter 27.

I encourage you to take a solo trip!