.i was going through my old letters and i came across one that stuck out and it made me realize that the only reason why i'm unhappy is because of myself. this person told me exactly what it was that they thought and years later they still think and despite of all of the wonders i find myself making, they always told me what it was from the beginning.
`then it hit me. i have to stop waiting for the world to change. time and time again people have failed to reach my level of expectations and really it's not even that high. i mean i know that everyone makes mistakes and i shouldn't really expect much from people because things happen, but sometimes things don't happen and when that don't happens, it's when i'm let down. i know that some things are doable - they just aren't done for me. HOWEVER! i'm not trying to sound all sad and wallow in my sorrows lol i know that in the future things are going to change. sadness doesn't last for ever just like happiness doesn't last. i'll continue to do to others as i'd done to me - with precautions of course.
i can't wait until that something new becomes the something now. i can't wait to meet new people, to feel new butterflies, to find new love.-no not a love meaning person per say, just a new passion. i want to be passionate again. even though a new person may just what i need. who knows?-God knows :)