.nights and moments like these remind me that these have been the toughest 4 months of my life. Just realizing and dealing with the truth, heart break, and rejection is terrible. And here I am, 2:35 am and I can't sleep and there is no one to turn to because it's late, and no one wants to hear my complain about the same thing. And I can't reach out to that person because they barely respond to me, won't talk to me, doesn't want to be there. Doesnt even care. Face to face with the truth while everyone sleeps, me and the trurth stare at eachother until I fall asleep. Rejected. Neglected. Numb.
Can't wait to graduate in 30 days. Can't wait until France in 31 days. Can't wait to begin something new. To get a new, fresh start at happiness and goals. It's almost here. Just 30 more days.