.After pondering about it half way through the night, I realized that I'm a jealous or maybe territorial person. Im half way around the world yet I'm jealous that you're going out and not spending time with me. That you're having fun without me and I'm jealous that your friends get that time and attention from you. It's bothering me. I also noticed that Id like for you to feel the same way. I don't like guys that are a bit too passive when it comes to me going out or not giving them the attention that they want. I dont want to be jealous or have you jealous all the time but it needs to be shown a lot more. I'm needy of people and their attention. I'm independent yes. I can do and work for thing on my own, yes. But im sooo needy of attention from you. I sometimes need to be smothered and I need to see some kind of jealousy. The last guy I dated was too passive and never really kept me in check. He never realized that I love that.
:-/ it's going to be a long summer.