Monday, February 13, 2012

.A song that reminds you of a former friend.

Single- NKTOB

This song brings me back to sophomore year at Hampton University. There was this one girl who I hung out with. She was cool and all but she was a little possessive and I'll just keep it at that. I do think of her every now and then though but I think I burned that bridge. I'm not saying that I want to be BFF's with her, but I would like to reach out to say hi and I know she'll have an indifferent attitude about it. She had problems letting go. lol

This brings me to the whole "burning bridges" thing. Recently, as in superbowl weekend, a "friend" of mine, burned the bridge of our relationship. Like completely and honestly, I've been praying heavily to find a place in my heart to purely forgive him for what he did to me, I can easily see myself NEVER speaking to him again. Walking past him on an empty street, not even looking his way as if he never existed and most importantly as if our friendship and what we shared never existed. Boom. Easy. He's done and erased. But then there are some friendships where it's so easy for me to forgive. There's this one friendship where I've been let down and hurt and blatantly told the cold truth, yet I can't get enough! My pride is too big to reach out with my usual "hi" text especially in this situation. I don't think I'll get a response and my ego wouldn't take that lightly. lol I didn't choose to end the friendship, they did, so I would really look like a fool trying to text or even tweet them. But it's soooo harddddd!!!! There's so much that I want to share and say and laugh about. I want to share something with them daily like I used to. But whatever. It's something that they wanted and I respect their wishes.

It just feels like some friendships will never end.

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