So I got a job offer at another major Network in the greater NYC area.
I haven't made official decisions or signed any papers.
I can't wait to spill the beans though.
I'm so happy, like so happy. Emotionally this weekend was pretty tough (as you can tell from my previous entries) and it's like whenever I'm down in the dumps and my faith is at its lowest and I'm questioning everything and I feel terrible, God shows up and blesses me. He lifts my head and let's me know to keep pushing and keep trying. That despite my emotional feelings, that someone is watching and someone is caring. And means the world to me.
I met this guy, strictly professional, and I spoke with him 4 times, once in person and he took a chance with me. Kept me in his mind and helped me out and is continuing to do so. It brings me to tears when I think about it. That he's so willing and really helpful and he doesn't even know me. It truly cancels all of that self doubt I've taken on since graduating. I doubted my self emotionally. I felt like everything I did was wrong and I couldn't figure out how I could change. How can I change who I am? My personality? My charm, my wit? It's really hard when you have to change who you are. Not make changes and compromises to certain things but everything about you. That's what I dealt with. And I meet someone who can change my life once and they were impressed with who I am and what I've done and what I'm capable of doing. And they don't forget about me. They continue to help and continue to be there.
God is so good.
I'll keep you posted on where I'm going and what's happening. I definitely know that the pressure is on though. I can't let this guy and most importantly God down. I have to be on my A game. No room for error.