Monday, May 12, 2014

When it rains, it pours

I'm literally the happiest that I've been in a long time. No, things aren't perfect - a (recently old) friend of mine broke up with me, I tried to apply something to my body to make it look better and now it just looks worse (which is quite hilarious) and I can't stop gaining weight (well thanks to my BCP, I've gained 6 pounds that won't budge). Obviously, I have it so hard. But with all of that, I'm so happy.

I'm happy that things didn't work out for me and my friend. I'm glad that she's released me into the world and no longer has to deal with me being so terrible to her. I'm once less burden for her to carry and that makes me feel awesome. People and things happen. You go through times and changes completely alone. There are things that have happen to me that no one can relate to and it's because I had to go through that alone. I had to separate myself from people who I thought I knew and who I thought knew me and in the end, I came out better with better people surrounding me. I'm not going to bash her and describe why I did or didn't do the things I did. I'm just happy that she's happy, with or without me. The smoothest break up I've had yet.

Then there's this guy.. For whatever reasons, I get myself in the toughest and hardest situations. haha
Last week, I was told that I was a dreamer. I was put down for not being "realistic" about life and my expectations from it. Oh so close, but yet so far. One day.

Then there's work. I GOT A NEW GIG! I was shaking and crying and worrying and when I finally gave it to God, it worked out. I remember the day that I did too. Someone had just announced that they were leaving the company and usually I would sulk and then apply to some jobs but there was one time when I just went outside and thanked God, the Universe for my next gig. And then shortly it came! 2 weeks notice is in.

Now, I need to decide where I'm going to travel within the next few months.

I don't know. I'm just really hopeful and I'm getting nothing but positive thoughts. Who knows what's going to happen.

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