.when i was there i had great conversations with a lot of different people. i learned a lot. one of the things that i learned was that sometimes when you have conversations with people, more is said with things being unsaid. and i related to that sooo much. words, written words, reading words, writing words, typing words, have much more of an affect that hearing the words. i feel that reading something takes more out of the thing that's being said. you actually have to process everything that i write, word for word. you can always go back and feel that passion that i'm writing and feeling when you read something. you can't do that with spoken words and sometimes you often forget. it really hit me on how important it is to write down how you feel. it's also important to write down how you feel about someone else as well, just in case they want to ever go back to that moment and feel your passion.
.another conversation i had was about word choice. i had a conversation with a new found friend and he was telling me about how he told this girl he wanted to discover her. that was just so sexy to me. switch up the words. it bring such passion to the conversation rather than the normal things that people say.
.i was called difficult a lot on this trip lol. but i'm grateful for it. it made me think, am i truly difficult? and if i am, is it that much a problem? i don't think so. and if i am difficult, why are you making me that way. it's funny because behind this whole me being difficult, lies a story of love. i won't tell the story, because it's not my story to tell, but i'll mention it sooner or later.. i tell everything else.
.all in all. this trip has made me realize more about myself and what i want out of life and friendships and ultimately relationships.
.also BERMUDIANS ARE BOMB! I GOT FREE DRINKS AND FOODS AND RIDES MY WHOLE STAY NOT TO MENTION THE PEOPLE, MALES AND FEMALES ALIKE ARE JUST GORGEOUS! BOMB.COM PLACE. ugh. i lovee bermuda. did i mention you have to be 18 to party and drink?
lol. i'll say no more.