.i'll just be single for the rest of my life..?.

.PAUSE; WAIT; HOLLLLDDD UP!.

.i've been pondering -what else is new? and i've somehow come across of the realization that i don't think i'll be a good girlfriend. real rap! i'm not sure what to do or where to begin. that's pretty scary to me. like i can't wait to be a mom and wife -well i can wait but you get the idea, but yet i don't have the slightest* idea as to what to do in a relationship. calling; texting; talking; being around eachother all day. i'm not really into that. -well i can be around you all day for like one day lol but not everyday! BUT isn't that what you have to do? oh brother. smh. no wonder why i'm single lol.

.this is bothering me. this is like the one thing i haven't accomplished or at least tried out seriously. and i hate not tackling things that i've never done before. but i don't even know how to start if i was given the opportunity. it's actually pretty scary to me. what if i do it all wrong and i'm the worst ever?! ahhh! too many thoughts!

.i hope whoever i become a girlfriend to really loves me, because lol quite frankly, i don't know what i'm supposed to do or how to do it. i just know how to love..sometimes :) hehe.