.right now i'm in a funk. and what's making in harder for me being in this funk is that fact that i'm surrounded by strong personalities. i mean i don't mean to snap or flip ish but i feel like i always listen to people's sides or reasons, but i feel like when i just want to put how i feel out there, it's not being listened and if i approach the situation, then it's going to be my fault. it's always my fault, and then i'm in the wrong when i get defensive about it always being my fault. it's like wait! do you want me to just sit back and let you say whatever you want? um no. like it's crazy. and i don't want to feel this way. but this is what happens when i hang around a lot of females. i need some testosterone in my life.
.i want to just sit back and be quiet. but when i do, then that's an issue too. idk. see this is what i mean when i say i don't even know myself. like idk what's going on. i always get into this hampton funk. i just feel like ahhh! but you'd think that these people that "know me" would understand. but they never do.
.being a girl is gay on this day.