So this past weekend, my dad and I drove down to Virginia with my sister and nephew to help them move into their next chapter. They have officially left New Jersey and are now residents of Virginia. If you read one of my previous posts, then you should know how sad this makes me. I mean I'm completely happy for them. It's great to go out and experience things. This is definitely something new for them so I'm excited to watch how it all blooms out for them but at the same time, I spent so much time with them. Yeah I'll feel lonely in the first couple of weeks but this won't be the first time I've felt lonely. I'll be fine. Last night I was recapping my weekend and I felt the reality that they aren't here. The house was empty without them and I found myself thinking about things that are bothering me and I had no where to turn to divert my attention. :/ Now I have to face my issues until they pass. No Cameron to distract me. That's going to be the toughest part.
On the way back home, it was just me and my dad. This will be the first time in a very long time that it will just be me and my dad. I'm sure I won't see him that much, he lives life as if he doesn't have any children. Always had and always will, besides I'm older now so he doesn't have to see me all the time, though I'd really like that. But there won't be Cameron or Aja to pop up in the conversation or the room. Now I really get to know my dad on a personal level without having to hear "my dad likes things this way" or "I know my dad.." Now I get to have my own experience with him. I'm excited about it but I also have no expectations. None. If there's one thing I learned from my dad is to never have any expectations in someone.
It's a new chapter in everyone's life.