I'm not sure if it's because I know quite a few people without their parents, but lately, I've been overwhelmed with love for my parents. It's been bringing me to tears. I see them as being human now. I guess in the past, I've only viewed them as "superheros." They've always come to my rescue, they've provided, made things happen and now I just see them as they are. I see the lines around their eyes, I see hair thinning, their bodies aching.
In a way, I feel bad because I'm not where I want to be to be able to provide for them. My mom especially. I'm the only person in my immediate family with a college degree. My mother lost a job she was at for nearly 20 years and since then she's not been able to fully get back on feet. I see the bills piling, on top of my own bills that are piling and it just makes me feel so sad. How is she going to send another child to college when she can barely do what she's doing now? My mom. My baby. I'm just always concerned about her and my father. I just want to protect them and provide for them. Every time I'm around them, I just want to hold them and never let them go.