.it's so funny that on the night where i'm feeling so low like theee lowest, you happen to pop up. and the weird thing about it, is that this happens all the time. it's like whenever i'm going through withdrawl from you and it's at the stage where i'm desiring you so much, you always pop up to give me the fix that i need to go on. what am i going to do when you aren't around anymore? when you are that drug for someone else? it's so scary. our friendship is just that bomb. i hope that it stays like that forever. i don't think i'll ever be ready to give it up. it's amazing that you can do things for me and not even know it, not even have the slightest idea that i need you the most, and there you appear.
.today is my old friends birthday. i was there for him when he was in jail to be a friend to write to and he definitely got out and forgot alll about me lol his baby's mother didn't though. it's funny. i'm just glad he was there to hear me out when i needed it the most. i hope he has a good birthday though.