Monday, March 26, 2012


Though this is a big step and great thing!!, I'm so sad.

My nephew Cameron is going to be moving away in about 2 weeks. I am so devestated inside but at the same time, this is completely necessary. He's going to be living with both his parents which is so exciting! I'm so happy for him. This is a big thing! It's big for everyone, my sister and her boyfriend the same. I hope that everything will work out.

But I know I'm going to take this really hard. Just last night when I was playing with Cameron, tears came to my eyes. I love him so much. I've never loved anyone as much as I love him. Seeing him born and being the first person to see him really effected me. I was there from the beginnging for him and it's just so crazy that I can really love someone this much. I get teary eyed just thinking about the day he was born. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Such a special time. Cameron calls me baby. He walks up to me with his arms stretched out and he says "baby." lol AWWW man. I'm going to miss our rubby noses and his kisses! He kisses me more than he kisses anyone else. He'll kiss me before he'll kiss his mother at times and when I walk into the house, his face lights up to see me.

It's going to be tough without him and my sister around.


ugh. I'm not ready for this. I'm happy now! I don't want to be sad. I know that I'm going to cry for a bit until I get used to not seeing them. I just hope that I stay in regular contact with them. Things change when I'm not around the corner from them. I totally understand it but still :/ it's not something that I really like to accept. I'm going to miss a lot in his life but this is my sister's life! She has to do her family thing. I wish them all the best!!

Me and my baby

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