.clean and clear and under control.

.rarely am i in this state. bare, is what i'm talking about. no earrings, no necklace and even in some pictures no lip gloss. my hair is going through something because it was straight for such a long time and it's having difficulties returning to its natural state. it's all good though. nevertheless peep.






[i was singing 'Waiting On The World To Change' in one of this pics]

.its a family affair.

.its so crazy how God works. I have a great family in which I'm completely grateful for because there are a lot of people who have less than what I have, but everything that glitters aint gold.

.with that being said I'm so grateful for my godmother and godsister. Without them idk what I'd do.

.im not a businessman, i'm a business man.

.so this upcoming summer of 2009 is going to be a great summer. i'm definitely predicting it now. i was blessed to get a bomb.com internship with Live with Regis and Kelly. i wanted to mention the whole interview process and all of that before but i didn't want to boast about something if i didn't get it. i remained humble and look now i will be amongst 9 others this summer interning for a live show on WABC-TV. it's so crazy now that i really sit down and think about it. i'm really making serious moves towards my future and even if i don't continue to persue something in the media, this is such a blessing and a great opportunity that many can't say that they've had. my days will be long. i have to work from 8am to 6pm UNPAID! but that's ok. i'll gain the knowledge that will intime bring in the money that i'm missing out on. i'm so excited to start! and it's in the city. ugh I LOVE NEW YORK CITY IN THE SUMMER TIME and i will be there all summer. i can only imagine. i'm proud of myself. and that's a great thing. i'll definitely keep you guys posted on all that i do and all the people i meet.


.dag like forreal i really feel old. not like oh man i miss my childhood, but i'm becoming an adult. going off to work in the city for a television show is something that i dreamed of and now i'm actually going to be doing it. and i'm going to be commuting all alone lol-- not that i haven't commuted from jersey to the city but idk i guess i'm definitely going to feel so much older than 19 this summer. i'm truly about to be on my grown woman. it's time to work on my business which of course is the establishment of Bianca Lynn Hammonds est. 1989.

.nothing but Angels watching over me.

Dear God,

Forgive me for I have sinned. I've turned my back on you and only came to you when I needed you the most but not when I should have been there to worship you. I became selfish and only asked you for the things that I want but not what I need. I've put so many things and people before you and time and time again they let me down when you've always remained by my side. I've done things that shame you but you still love me. I've hated myself when all you did was stand by me. Lord I'm asking you not to give up on me, and don't let me go. I know I don't live a life that reflects your presence, but I know you are still there. I do feel you. Time again the devil is busy and tries to destroy me, but you always fight that battle for me and keep me safe. I've been hurt and I've fallen but I'm still here and my living is a testimony to your greatness. You've never left nor foresaken me and I'm grateful to you. I owe my life to you. Please Lord forgive me and help me stay focused on you. Thank you for blessing my life. Help me Lord to keep me first and please dear God have mercy upon my life and my actions.

Love you always,
Bianca.

.i decided to write that personal statement from me to God on here because so many of us tend to forget about God. we don't give him the praise that he's due. we've but so many worldly things in front of him forgetting that we must please him and with that, he'll give us all that we desire. i used to be really close with God but i fell off. i got caught up and i can really feel the difference from being in his presence and being out in the world. readers, know that God is real and he's out there, whether you want him or not, he's always there. try God and see the changes happen to your life. remember to keep him first and watch that he will do the same and watch his blessings unfold. I really love God, and I'm always thankful that he loves me too. Without his love, I would be lost, honestly. I'm not a weak person, not at all, but were times when i was slipping, and if God's love wasn't there to cover me, i'd be gone. I'm not embarassed. I'm just keeping it real.

be blessed.